Saturday, April 28, 2007

Anxiety (Get Nervous)

WARNING - VENTING AHEAD

It's supposed to be a 20 mile run this weekend, and I had planned it for today, I even did a proper carb load, but I'm still dealing with the sinus thing. My doctor's office never called back on Friday and they're usually out on the weekends. If I call into urgent care it will blow my entire weekend. I hope I can manage with a couple of Aleive and a lot of water. I keep hoping this is a fluke and my head will feel better and I can get out there and run. Tomorrow is another day. I hope it's better. It will be better.

I'm also beginning to get a little anxious with the marathon in a little over a month away. I'm not even in taper mode yet, and I feel this way. I'm trying to keep a positive mental attitude (PMA), but the doubts are creeping in a bit. I'm beginning to doubt finishing my marathon in 5 hours or less. My first marathon in 2005 was 5:30. Last year was 5:13. Can I even come close to knocking 13+ minutes off of last year's time? I'm not trying to Q for Boston or anything (which would be awesome, but it's not happening), I just would like to see a 5 hour (or less) marathon under my hydration belt... My training times are s-l-o-w-l-y getting faster again, but is it enough? Do I have enough time between now and June 3, 2007 to run a little faster? Can I make it past marathon mile 22 without any pain to hamper my finish time? Can I possibly stay away from injury or illness between now and marathon day? I'm already dealing with the sinus thing and I'm frustrated. Then the knee twinges happen IF I happen to take an OTC sinus med. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

I've just re-read that last paragraph. Whining doesn't look any better in print than it sounds in person.

PMA, PMA, PMA... Visualization, meditation, happy thoughts...

Peace
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4 comments:

barbie2be said...

pat benatar?

hang in there, Irene. hopefully the OTC drugs will take care of the problem.

Dori said...

I love the Chill Pill. Sorry you're sick; don't you have enough time to do your 20 miler next week if you can't do it this weekend? If you review your training log, you'll see that you've been training strong and most likely can hit your goal. Try the Yasso 800 test. http://www.runnersworld.com/article/0,7120,s6-238-244-255-624-0,00.html

Get well soon.

Lori said...

I am right there with you. Everyone else at work has gone to the doctor and gotten antibiotics. I'm stubborn thinking mine will go away. Well tomorrow it will be 2 weeks. I feel ok finally but still stuffy. My workouts are suffering, can't hit a 10.

Hope you feel better.

Lori

Irene said...

Barbie2bw,
Winner! Yay! I'm hoping it all goes away soon... Thanks.

Dori,
I hope to get in my 20 miler during the week. Next week I'm running in an 8K event. I know about Yasso's 800's, although I haven't put them into any of my training this year. Thanks for the reminder.

Lori,
Thanks for stopping by! I guess it's the season for the creepy crud to go around again. Maybe it's better that I get it over with now instead of closer to marathon day. I hope you're feeling better, too. Thanks.