WARNING - VENTING AHEAD
It's supposed to be a 20 mile run this weekend, and I had planned it for today, I even did a proper carb load, but I'm still dealing with the sinus thing. My doctor's office never called back on Friday and they're usually out on the weekends. If I call into urgent care it will blow my entire weekend. I hope I can manage with a couple of Aleive and a lot of water. I keep hoping this is a fluke and my head will feel better and I can get out there and run. Tomorrow is another day. I hope it's better. It will be better.
I'm also beginning to get a little anxious with the marathon in a little over a month away. I'm not even in taper mode yet, and I feel this way. I'm trying to keep a positive mental attitude (PMA), but the doubts are creeping in a bit. I'm beginning to doubt finishing my marathon in 5 hours or less. My first marathon in 2005 was 5:30. Last year was 5:13. Can I even come close to knocking 13+ minutes off of last year's time? I'm not trying to Q for Boston or anything (which would be awesome, but it's not happening), I just would like to see a 5 hour (or less) marathon under my hydration belt... My training times are s-l-o-w-l-y getting faster again, but is it enough? Do I have enough time between now and June 3, 2007 to run a little faster? Can I make it past marathon mile 22 without any pain to hamper my finish time? Can I possibly stay away from injury or illness between now and marathon day? I'm already dealing with the sinus thing and I'm frustrated. Then the knee twinges happen IF I happen to take an OTC sinus med. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
I've just re-read that last paragraph. Whining doesn't look any better in print than it sounds in person.
PMA, PMA, PMA... Visualization, meditation, happy thoughts...